...I'm not sure how to start again, because the pain is still so fresh, but I think I must. I must start again because I must regain my confidence in my God and my Father. I must because He is my only refuge...He is my only source of strength. I admit that these past two weeks have been very difficult for me. There have been times, even now, when I am shaken, when life seems very uncertain. I am struggling ---torn between knowing that God is good, that He is sovereign, and that He absolutely loves us and feeling abandoned and hurt. I know that I am vulnerable to the enemy's attacks and I ask for God's fierce protection over me to reject the lies that can come into my mind. I pray that I do not disillusion anyone by my admissions of this struggle. I have no doubt that God will bring me through, and that I will grow and learn from it, but right now it's spiritually painful.
Three verses that I am focusing on tonight:
John 14:27 - "Peace I leave with you. My peace I give to you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Your heart must not be troubled or fearful."
Please, Lord, relieve my fears. Grant me Your peace that surpasses anything that this world can give. Even through times when I do not understand what is going on within me, remind me that You are my Savior, that You are my salvation. That nothing on earth is greater than You or Your plans.
Isaiah 26:3 - "You will keep in perfect peace the mind that is dependent on You, for it is trusting in You."
Please, Lord, keep my mind dependent on You, based on complete trust in You. You are trustworthy, You are truth. Let my mind reject all deception and lies. Take away my anxiety and restore to me Your perfect peace.
John 3:16 - "For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have everlasting life."
Remind me of Your complete and all encompassing love. My belief is intact---You are my God, and Jesus is my Savior. Assure me of my life with You, now and forever.
Thank you, dear Christian friends, for allowing me to be honest. To share my grief and my struggle...and my faith that God is stronger than all and that He is the One that restores us. Pray with me, pray for me, and pray for all our family. Pray that God will draw each one of us closer to Him as we sort through our individual paths of pain.
One more verse tonight...it is our new verse. Yes, starting again.
For I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it is God's power for salvation to everyone who believes, first to the Jew, and also to the Greek. - Romans 1:16
The Gospel -- God's power for salvation -- thank You Lord for Your plan, Your way, Your truth. Let me be secure in that. There is nothing more.
Three verses that I am focusing on tonight:
John 14:27 - "Peace I leave with you. My peace I give to you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Your heart must not be troubled or fearful."
Please, Lord, relieve my fears. Grant me Your peace that surpasses anything that this world can give. Even through times when I do not understand what is going on within me, remind me that You are my Savior, that You are my salvation. That nothing on earth is greater than You or Your plans.
Isaiah 26:3 - "You will keep in perfect peace the mind that is dependent on You, for it is trusting in You."
Please, Lord, keep my mind dependent on You, based on complete trust in You. You are trustworthy, You are truth. Let my mind reject all deception and lies. Take away my anxiety and restore to me Your perfect peace.
John 3:16 - "For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have everlasting life."
Remind me of Your complete and all encompassing love. My belief is intact---You are my God, and Jesus is my Savior. Assure me of my life with You, now and forever.
Thank you, dear Christian friends, for allowing me to be honest. To share my grief and my struggle...and my faith that God is stronger than all and that He is the One that restores us. Pray with me, pray for me, and pray for all our family. Pray that God will draw each one of us closer to Him as we sort through our individual paths of pain.
One more verse tonight...it is our new verse. Yes, starting again.
For I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it is God's power for salvation to everyone who believes, first to the Jew, and also to the Greek. - Romans 1:16
The Gospel -- God's power for salvation -- thank You Lord for Your plan, Your way, Your truth. Let me be secure in that. There is nothing more.
4 comments:
The contrast between knowing and feeling is oh so true! That you can see that is part of the peace that is being showered on you and your loved ones. Glad you are back!
I have been praying for you and your family. So thankful you and trusting God's love even when life is not fair. Thanks for sharing your heart. I have a trouble writing to you. God is the God of all comfort and i am praying He holds you tight at this time.
Thank you, Laurel and Becky. Thank you for your prayers and your love.
It was good to see you last night and to know the healing of your pain has begun. With your pain comes many different feelings and confusing thoughts. I know you and Robert are "grounded" in God's Word and His Love. God's promise of Salvation - that is what we are living for. We accept His plan for our lives, even when it is difficult and confusing.
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